PERSONAL
JOURNEY
From outer to inner
“I had it all — but I experienced a lack of meaning and an emptiness inside that no party, money, or next exciting travel or adventure could possibly fill.’
HI, MY NAME IS BIBI
For most of my life I considered myself to be an overachiever - getting value out of excelling in whatever I did. Or a people pleaser and saviour - being the person people wanted me to be. That meant I had no stop (it was never enough) and no healthy boundaries (I couldn’t say no). It is a miracle I never got a burnout. What I did experience, however, was a lack of meaning, an —eating away at me— emptiness that no party, money, or next exciting travel or adventure could possibly fill. I wasn’t aware that this feeling was essentially a disconnection to my true self. That it was showing me how far I was estranged from the person I was born and meant to be. And that it was calling me to turn back home to myself. So I started my journey inwards.
FEELING AS A DOORWAY
In 2017 I signed up for a 7-day transformational group process called Path of Love. This experience was the opening to and a beginning of a path of continuous self exploration, - growth and-love that I by now know I will walk forever until I leave this body. To walk this path is the only and deepest commitment I have ever given and will ever give.
I changed my life completely. It felt like a choiceless choice to give up all that I had known in Amsterdam, follow my intuition and move to Mallorca to live in DIMA, the conscious community center my dearest friend Kanika invited me to join. I needed other people who were, just like me, willing to risk it all in the search for truth, connection and love.
That did not mean a life without struggle or challenges. Moving to Mallorca was not an escape, it was a deep dive into the depths of my being. I felt and experienced more conflict and pain than I had ever felt in my life. Instead of running away from it, in DIMA we choose to face the unknown, to feel the uncomfortable feelings, to be held and to be supported in the transformation of all that is not the truth of who we are.
“I had lost touch of what it means to feel. I needed to (re)learn how to drop down into my body, listen and feel in order to be truly and deeply connected.
INTUITIVE GUIDANCE
An integral part of DIMA’s values and guiding principles is to open up to something greater than ourselves. Until my life in DIMA I did not believe in, understand or consciously related to a divine intelligence. When I experienced Cellular Transformation (a profoundly powerful healing modality) with Jennifer Millar for the very first time, it was too loud to ignore. I felt this divine intelligence, which I prefer to call Spirit, in the room, in my body, in my bones. And I witnessed over and over again how its power of love and light can transform everything. From that very first workshop on, I have dedicated my life to prioritise my personal and intimate relationship to it every since. I often say that Spirit speaks to and through me via my intuition. I know when I get these "‘hits” of intuitive clarity and let them guide me in they way I show up and relate to myself and the world around me.
“The more I let go of what I thought I was or expected myself to be, the more clearly and loudly I was able to hear the sound of my true voice.”
A CONTINUOUS HUMBLING EXPERIENCE
Thankfully, my intuition has also guided me over the years into discovering what I am meant to be doing in this lifetime. After university, I began my professional path at a creative digital agency and worked as a freelance strategy consultant for various big corporations afterwards for a couple of years. I quickly found out that although I was working for the big names and I was earning more money than I could spend, it was not deeply fulfilling.
The invitation to live and run DIMA Mallorca, and thereby stepping completely out of the fast-paced life I had known, came at the perfect time. Looking back at it now, these four years of doing inner work and being of service at the same time in a conscious community made me humble myself to the extent that I was no longer in need of being successful in what I do, but rather in need of enjoying and positively impacting the people around me with what I have to offer.
It was through unlearning everything that I was not, that my true passions and gifts were able to shine through. For the first time in my life I felt I did not have to do anything in order for my life to unfold in front of me. I just lived, loved and listened deeply in every moment to what excites and expands me and the universe responded.
The relationship with my partner Maarten, who walks by my side now for 9 years, has ignited the fire within me to listen more deeply, feel more wholeheartedly and love more fiercely as a woman. Our relationship is always evolving and deepening as we are both committed and devoted to each other’s and our own personal growth and expansion. Vulnerability and conscious communication have become the two most important pillars of the way we relate and bring us over and over again closer and more deeply in love.
Out of this conscious relationship, grew the longing and passion to become a mother. As of today we are blessed with two healthy and beautiful children; a daughter Zoë and a son Elia. Motherhood has been the most transformative journey of my life and the biggest inspiration to live my life radiantly and to share as generously as possible what I have to give.
Personal and spiritual growth to me is not something I do or attend to when I have the time; it is who I am, it is in my bones, it is what gets me going and turned on, it is my passion for life. It is a path a commit and devote my whole being to every single day. By walking this path with as much humility, vulnerability and compassion as I can, I hopefully live by example and inspire others to do the same.
My energy is here to awaken the asleep, to ignite the fire, and to share the depths and joy of what it means to be fully alive.
FINDING AND SHARING MY GIFT
I have been mirrored and reflected back by many people over the years that know me well, that I have a lot of energy, like a sun that always radiates strength, warmth and optimism. I personally feel it more like an urgency in my system, that wants to awaken the asleep, to ignite the fire, to share the depths and joy of what it means to be fully alive. This energy is here, I know that by now, to inspire, provoke and ignite change in people. It is active, dynamic and powerful.
Next to this piercing and loud energy that I have known quite well my whole life, I got more and more in touch with my feminine side over the years. I discovered that I see and feel a lot and receive many intuitive insights when I am connected to myself. This energy is here to hold space for, to mirror, to guide and to give to others. It is sensitive, soft, humble and generously loving.
Home for Radiant Living is created out of combining my passions (relating, motherhood, personal growth) and my gifts (igniting change and guiding others), which brings me nothing but pure joy, gratitude and fulfilment.
I am not a coach or therapist nor do I pretend to be. I am not here to fix or heal anyone. I am here to support people in seeing, feeling and sharing their true essence and qualities. I will mirror the light in you and all that got in the way of you expressing that (your blindspots), I will shake you out of passivity and comfortability (to take responsibility and change behaviour) and I will guide and motivate you to face your fears in speaking and living your essence and truth in everyday life. So that ultimately you will experience more joy, abundance, connection and love - whether it is in your purpose and work, your relationships, or at home with your family. It would be an honour to accompany you.
